I have been in and out of work a couple of times since having Olivia, as they needed my help with certain things, so I feel it won’t be a huge shock to the system when I leave her with my mam for my first official day back. I do realise how lucky I am to have my mam around to care for her, it would be so much worse if I had to leave her with strangers. The emotional side of saying goodbye to her and being gone all day long, that will be something I’ll have to get used to I expect, as it’s been me and her all day, everyday, since she was born (bar my trip to London).
Not for one second have I been bored at home during my maternity leave. I’ve heard women say that before and I actually wish there was a day that I could say I was bored. It’s been crazy since February, rearing a baby and maintaining our house is tough work and now throwing my job into the mix, Oh I can see it now, Aileen is gonna be stressed!
I have to remember there are plenty of upsides of going back to work. I will now be working part-time instead of full-time so hopefully I won’t miss out on too many of Olivia’s “first times”. It’ll also be nice to have some adult conversation all day long, getting my glad rags back on and feeling smart again is alway’s a plus too!
I have to focus on the positives and enjoy this transition for both Olivia and me….. until my next maternity leave that is!